They say love is in every corner. Well then, maybe, just maybe, I am walking on circles..
Maybe I cannot accept love right now because I don't want to end up bitter. I don't want to end up with a messed up marriage full of unsettled arguments. I don't want to end up seeing my kids grow up with a negative notion about love. I don't want to end up still looking for love at age 80. And most especially, I don't want to end up being unfulfilled because of choosing a love in the wrong place, wrong time and wrong person.
I want my life to be worth it. So I will choose the love that deems all the scraps of my past and my whole being, the love the comes when all else fails me, the love that came the moment I stopped looking, the love that simply stays regardless of any reason, and most specially I will choose the love reciprocates every bit of my unrestrained love. And I know somewhere in the midst of my occupied life, it will come in the right place, right time and the very very right person.
